Answer:
I am praying for you. Jesus is always more concerned about the inside than the outside, just like the paralytic that was forgiven his sins. Jesus didn’t see a crippled man on the outside, he saw someone crippled on the inside and was concerned about that. (Read Mark 2)
All I can tell you is that when Jesus looks at you He sees a beautiful person, one that is filled with His Spirit and His being. Keep praying for healing. I believe in due time it will happen. In the meantime, perhaps God is using you to encourage others you don’t even know about that His grace is more than sufficient to carry us through our difficult times.
Thank you,
Pastor Brad